I didn't want to leave. There was only enough time on the last day to wake up leisurely, have breakfast downstairs at Makana Terrance, and pack. Claus piloted us back to Oahu at noon.
As we drove back to Lihue, Claus and I reviewed the vacation. I deemed it the best vacation I've taken since Olivia was born. What was nice about it? In 48 hours, I was able to reconnect with 1) myself, 2) my husband. I got to remember what life was like BC: Before Child.
Important: THANK YOU Christian and grandparents for watching Olivia!!!
Sure, I have babysitting help most mornings, but I've become accustomed to working during that short three or four hour period. I shuffle personal paperwork (bills and such), I write the occasional freelance article, I cook and clean. There isn't really time to waste. I know if I sit idle, it'll be at the end of the day when I don't function at higher capacities. I have to get things done early in the day.
The middle of my day is spent with Olivia. Sometimes we run errands together. Sometimes we go to the park, pool, beach, or play dates. I am used to constantly looking after someone. It was a really nice break to not have to, for an extended period of time.
Ironically, or perhaps not really, we spent a lot of time wishing for a break exactly like this, and then the minute we arrived on Kauai, we can't stop talking about her. Every hour or so, I'd announce that I missed her.
We kept repeating little phrases that she says, or pointing out things she'd like (like the Kauai Grill's hibiscus door), which then led to sharing a related story about her ("Oh, I forgot to tell you that she was picking a hibiscus the other day and..."), which led to us wondering what she was doing right about now.
I know it makes sense since she's the biggest part of our lives now, but it's just a little funny is all. Actually, Paul Drewes warned me about this a long time ago. Yes, Paul. You told me this would happen.
But you know, you also spend decades with your childless self, so to neglect that part of you for so long feels imbalanced after a while. I'm thrilled to make my child my life, but now and then, I miss me. I miss doing things I liked to do, I miss being with people I liked to be with, I miss my old life. I miss hanging out with my husband.
That's what I feel I got back on this trip. That's why we told ourselves we want to make it an annual event!
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